Show Me Love

It's 3:56 a.m. and 17 people are currently on facebook messenger with a green light. Now that is what the fuck I am talking about! lol. I am bumpin Trey Songz, drinking a Budweiser, and chillen.

I was thinking tho, I am not the type to post half-nude pictures of myself, but I have been working out.. and the kid is getting type ripped. It's been one long ass summer, for those of you who don't even know the half of it, trust me, it was long. Anyway, the hair is getting long, I've been getting my hulk on and chillen.

Please google Phenomenon Beaded Sunglasses. These bad boys are fucking fly as hell.
Anyway, I am out. Holla at the kid.

"You know I know we know you know me very well. You say I be gamin, but it ain't that hard to tell. "

Let Me Bless You

Yo, yo, yo-- whats really good? Yesterday was simply amazing.. hit up the lil wayne, young jeezy concert at darien lake then got fucked up downtown. What a disaster. Drake wasn't there. Sucked. But my man soulja boy tell em was there. So that was ill. I bought a mac book while I was in Buffalo... shit is so fucking dope, I cannot even begin to explain.

Anyone who wants to get busted in NBA Live or Madden please see me online for the PS3 because I will happily bust your ass. The username is crushgroove.

Oh, yesterday, on the way to buffalo we were playing blackjack in the car, I was the dealer, I whooped that ass. Made 84 dollars on the trip. So thats what it is.

Anyway, got mad shit to do today like play tiger woods.

BE easy... light on up for the kid.

Update

So last night I had a not so productive convo and basically found out I was a huge mistake.. real cool. real cool. On that note, I'll dipset.

This Is Me Freestyling (fucking around) lol

DUMB FUCKING FUNNY!

Young Money Tour is landing at Darien Lake

Thursday the 28th of August... I will be at the Drake, Weezy, Yeezy, and Soulja Boy Concert. You can google tickets to get yours. I got mine for $55 a piece. So Idk. Anyway, go cop and keep it gully...this should be a great fucking show!

Mark Lagreange: Polaroids.

This is dope as shit everyone. You gotta look past the nudity because it isn't even about that, so please don't judge. It's about the expression being captured.

Hello It's Me: Todd Rundgren

I Just Want You

Pinch me if I am dreaming.

As a matter of fact, I take that back.

Let me lay there, please.

Inside of your love.

Listening to your heartbeat—

Girl there ain’t no feeling better than feeling on your body.

Girl don’t you move a muscle; I just want to touch ya.

If you ever took your love away—

I could truly say I’d die right here today.

Don’t give me the world.

I just want my girl.

If I could have anything.

I put it on everything.

That it would be you.

I just want you.

I'm Just Saying, Cuz.

Unfortunately, most of the people that I speak with don’t quite understand the power of the words that they choose. I say this because everything that’s said is an affirmation…not some of the things…BUT EVERYTHING!

I’ve never met a successful person who wasn’t very in tune with the power of words. This is because they all know that it’s the truest indicator of how someone thinks…and no one can ever do more than they can think. Understand this people, the words that you choose to express your thoughts are the same words that will create the choices that you’ll have in your life. Simply put, your language is and always will be the limitation of your world.

THINK ABOUT IT!!!

Broken.

Where do I go from here? I'm so lost. Do you know how hard it is fighting my way through this.
It shouldn't even be like this--I shouldn't have to feel like this.

Some News Updates

Alright so I watched fuckin "The Orphan" last night and must say that that shit was off the chain. Please go out and watch it cause it's definitely worth the $8.00 to go see lol... ($2.00 more and you already know :).

The Philadelphia eagles is playing the Colts tonight for the Pre-Season game. Thats what it is.

The Yankees have mapped out Joba's starts and it is said that he will have six more starts.

The Yankees play Boston @ Boston over the weekend.. with my man CC pitching on Sunday.

Entourage is on Sunday..and I am anticipating this next episode cause the shit is really starting to get butter. I am tired of the half-hour bullshit, but its keeps the anticipation flowing, which is a plus.

It's rumored, my girl, Sarah Palin, is moving to Rhode Island? Wowww.. Shoutout to Bristol Palin lol.

Tom Ridge has been quoted as saying that he was pressured to raise terror alert in order to help Bush win re-election in 2004. That's fucking sad.. but anyway, Republicans are the shit. Why? Cause Obama is on that bullshit! "No one should be obligated to go into a public plan." - Obama. And no one should be obligated to go into a private plan;. As in the bill the House worked so hard to put together before recess. Real reform means any American can pay and opt in. Under the AAHC just packaged by leading Dems many Americans get royally fucking screwed.

Plaxico... 2 years in prison? God damn.

Enough for now. Be easy ya'll.

This Is Real Fly: From Burberry

Don’t let anyone tell you Burberry isn’t ‘down wiv tha kidz’. They’ve taken the popular packable cagoule and upgraded it by a considerable level – now allowing you to pack-a-trench. The trench itself is what you’d expect from Burberry – classic tailoring and all that jazz – it’s the packability that makes it so damn flyyy. At $550 it’s relatively cheap for Burberry – key word being relatively.

I HATE MONDAYS!

What it is? lol Sike. Yesterday was crazy. In a good way. I saw my family and that was refreshing--mind, body, and spirit--hallelujyerrrrr (madea shoutout lmfao). Anyway, I saw my cousins, which is always a pleasure, and some family I haven't seen in a while. I found out that my cousin Pam reads my blog SHOUTOUT COUSIN PAM! Gotta love it.

We played softball and cooked out. Uncles: Punkin, Wayne, and Cousin John on the grill. Delish as usuale. Speaking of which my cousin John is having an end of the summer party on the 12th of September! So thats what it is.

I have been listening to mad music lately and I want to share some songs to youtube or whatever.
Mint Condition: What happened?; Kanye West: RoboCop; Jagged Edge: Get This; D'Angelo: Send it on; and the Roots: Don't feel right.

KiD CuDi Man On The Moon: The End of Day | Album Art

KiD CuDi’s official Man On the Moon: The End of Day cover art has been revealed. Initially pushed back due to issues including the album art, the debut album is now locked down for a September 15th, 2009 release. Man On the Moon: The End of Day will come in two versions – a standard CD release and a Deluxe Edition DVD – each adorned with differing artwork.
This is going to be the dopest sound of the summer so holla.

random thought

I found this excerpt from Three Men in a Boat by Jerome K. Jerome quite fascinating…

“How good one feels when one is full - how satisfied with ourselves and with the world! People who have tried it, tell me that a clear conscience makes you very happy and contented; but a full stomach does the business quite as well, and is cheaper, and more easily obtained. One feels so forgiving and generous after a substantial and well-digested meal - so noble-minded, so kindly-hearted.”

Uhmm….I’ve decided to do all my future business deals over meals…LOL!!!

Break of Dawn: Michael Jackson. DOPEEEE

MAY I TALK MY SHIT AGAIN!?!?!

MICHAEL FUCKING VICK HAS SIGNED WITH THE PHILADELPHIA EAGLES, SHALL I SAY, MY FUCKING EAGLES!!! (CAN WE GET A SOUL CLAP???) HOLLA! AMEN!

PS: EVERYONE IS NOW GOING TO CHOOSE THE EAGLES IN MADDEN JUST SO THEY CAN RUN WITH MICHAEL VICK! WELL FUCK YOU, THAT IS MY TEAM!!!! :) DONT HATE-- CONGRATULATE!

Dreamkillers

What up....lmfao... I am zoooted. Anyway, I just wanted ya'll to go out and download Kanye West, "Dreamkillers." It's Dope.

Tioga Downs

Yo--

Last night went to the casino at Tioga Downs with some friends of mine. It was quite eventful. We were pissy drunk and talking mad shit to each other. I lost about 50+ bucks on the slots and drank a lot. Here is a funny video from the evening...

This Right Here Nigga...

This is the ZaZa Chair. The Shit is dope. Google them and buy one asap!

Glow In The Dark And I Don't Mean The Tour

Available in Fall 2009 Diesel launches a capsule collection of ” glow in the dark” accessories and denim to ensure that will never go unnoticed on the dance floor (kinda dope). I wonder what the markup on these will be?

Real Quick

Why is it niggas hate on you when you lie and then hate on you when you tell the truth. YOU CANT FUCKIN HANDLE THE TRUTH. What I really, really, really, really, have to say is quite raw so I freestyle lol. I say the truth, then I'm an asshole. I lie, then I'm a liar. Crazy shit. What's a nigga to do?

G.O.O.D Morning

lol.
Whats good though?
Woke up hella early this morning and watched Mr. & Mrs. Smith after a long night out. Hit up Horrigans and Legends and then repeated the cycle a few more times lol. It was a pretty chilly night tho, chilled with some friends, saw hella old-new-faces, if that makes sense lol, but it was mad cool. Slimmies were out and you know they smelled the piff on the kid. Everywhere I turned..a girl would tell me how I smelled like pot. (People sniff me for 2 reasons: either I smell fresh cause of some expensive cologne, I say expensive cause the shit aint cheap--polo holla, or I smell like that stanky stank which still smells good). THEY LOVE IT! I stay blunted tho.. I swear dutchmasters should just hook the brotha up with free boxes cause it gets costly. $1.25 a dutch, if you hit up Sammy's...and $1.75-$2.00 anywhere place else. Are you fucking kidding me? Is there any fucking love in this world lol? A fat girls gotta eat & a nigga has to get high.

I have been packing for Philly (Cudi) & the Yankees game, which is Saturday. My man Lonnie doesnt know I am coming to Philly, and since the nigga cant read, I can post it up on here lol. Sike, he can read but nigga don't get on the computer except to put pictures of himself up on his myspace. My nigga..Lonnie Knight...you in the buildin but the buildings fallin haha. You ain't know nigga--i'll holla tho.

Anyway, after the bar last night some friends came through and we blew that piffy up and made mad food last night at the crib. Pizza, chicken tenders, a bagel...you know a nigga fiends bagels when he pissy drunk and high on that jarell theodore hughes III. I passed out...well made drunken phone calls and left drunken voicemails...haha ughhh and woke up and bullshitted. Made steak and eggs..mmm. Shit was dumb good. I've been bumpin that Mike Jackson ish since I bought his cd yesterday.. but I gotta get back on my Cudi shit cause that nigga just don't know... I am gonna be spazzin at the joint all while smokin that JTH3.

Just realized that my arms are sore from Kayaking yesterday....and I didnt even paddle all crazy like that. Oh well...

Anyway, I'll holla. Its almost nine... roll something up.

When You Meet Me, When You See Me, You Know How To Holla!

Yoooo-- went fucking kayaking early this morning for the first time with my man, Matt. Shoutout. Shit was mad refreshing and relaxing. I fucking almost tipped the kayak mad times--got hella wet. I was tight. We hit up wegmans for some lunch, had a killer sub. I underestimated the power of a wegmans meal lol. Called a girl today, she stunted on me as usuale lol. Fuck it. Life goes on. Yankees and CC on Saturday at 4:15. Suite seats compliments of Aunt Penny and the Adidas Staff. So if you watch the game and they show the glimpse of the suite with the adidas logo-- THATS THE KID AND HIS FAMILY + Matt-- BALLLLLLLIN' Haha.

Do you understand what you are to me? The air I fuckin breathe.

Cudi Concert w/ Mr. Roth at the Electric Factory in Philly...shit is going to be dope. I caught a show of Cudi's in Toronto--the dude is fly. I will post pics of both events.

The day has been really wonderful in terms of weather--not muggy at all. I gotta buy me a kayak. You know I have been burnin.. not concernin... lol mad erractic in this posting, but its my blog.

Burn Cam?

True Story

can't sleep. please don't blow my high. I've been textin you for weeks but aint git a reply. I used to be fly but my mack is slippin..girl steady trippin. 4 years down the drain...should we arrange bells? weddings? hell no. get high and shine and b-line for the love line where there you'll find an empty portrait where her face once was. there will always be mistakes and they must be forgiven. love is that ability.

You text me complain cause I ain't ever get you flowers, like flowers don't die after a few hours. But I bought that coach purse, bought them necklaces, copped u bracelets, had you decked out in both pearls n laces--nikes. Yeah you bought shit, but I ain't floss it, cause it was never about that. Ya paid 450 and I never returned it. You mad at me now, why, Cause I lied, huh? Cause I was droppin airplane rides like I fell from the sky? Just too see you? Thats mad bread. Do the math. Same day flights. Not cheap. Haha.

But if we was in a movie, girl you'd be the one I'd be chasin, got my heart racin cause I aint ever seen a cutie with a package wrapped up so tight. But could you do with a brotha like me? I aint really got much to give. I got some bills pass due, and drive a hoop-d--aint nothing in my fridge, but got so much love to give. I know you think that I be ballin, but I got many issues, but if you wait patiently we can make love why you wait n see.

But, girl, I'mma be alright my nigga.

Haha I call you, you answer, hang right up, text me talkin about you meant to hit ignore? What kind of shit is that? Then you text me after weeks of playing mia then say Im ignoring you because I was getting high? You act like I'm a fiend..but I was doing the same thing while getting A's and B's--Bonas stand up.

(Cont.)

Yo whats good... I am sittin here, blunted as fuck haha. Bumping that Jay-Z, American Gangster Album. Shit is flyyyyyyy. Talkin to my man Johnnie Huffington Mc Yup Yup on the Facebook messenger as we speak and multi-taskin cause the blackberry is ringin out the window with bs texts lmfao. Sike naw. Anyway, I was supposed to fry chicken wings because my step-brother and his girlfriend came over to bullshit, basically. I never got to the frying though lol. Started talking about this and that, got blunted. I'll attach the blaze up cam photo in a sec, lol. I really should put up photos of me blazin in all types of random ass places. That shit would be bananas haha...

96 out of the 650ish friends I have on facebook are on messenger right now. Pretty impressive, considering so many people can be doing nothing at the same moment in time (oh 98 now lol) its funny. I gotta be off be back sooon.

UP, UP, On The Moon

I never gave a fuck
I never a fuck about what niggas thought about me
I mean did but fuck it.


They can't comprenhend
They even come close to understanding me
I guess if I was boring they would love me more
Guess if I was simple in the mind
Everything would be fine
Maybe if I was jerk to girls
Instead of being nice and speakin kind words
But then maybe it would be ok to say then
I wasn't a good guy to begin with

But now my mind is all crazy, crazy, crazy...
They gat me thinkin ine human,
Like I came in from above, above, above...
Feelin like a airplane in the sky
But then they say I'm crazy, crazy, crazy...
They gat me thinkin ine human,
Like I came in from above, above, above...
Feelin like a bird sittin high

T.G.I.F

Thank God I'm Fresh.

I'm super-duper and stay on my cream soda. Open up your heart and you will understand me. Fall into the music and let yourself go....

Picture compliments of my blackberry: @ Seneca lake.

My lifes way beyond your mama knows best

So whats good people...

first of all I would like to thank the people who sent me facebook messages in regards to my posting. Yes, I am okay everyone out there. You can reply on the page, I believe, you don't have to be a blogger member but anyway I appreciate the love any way I can get it. One comment in particular that really helped me put things into perspective was from a friend from the U.K. I won't post names... "Reading your blog-- Calvin, I think you should call "her" if you are still in love with her, 4 years is a long time for people your age... you can try to make things up, if you have understood why you blew it... I dont know why you two broke up and I am not really in favour of long relationships when people are young because oviously people change and then you end up together with someone who is not what he/she was in the beginning...but hey, maybe its not the case, dont let her go so easily if you love her and you are ready to respect that [...] " OK-- so that was some good advice... but when I do talk to this person things go awry very fast because I cant ever seem to manage to get the dark cloud hanging over my head to leave me. I have been through a lot over the weeks in order to rid myself but it seems that the more I try the harder things get. I understand that things will get worse before they get better...but damn.. I aint really got that kinda time ya heard? Love is fucked up and will make you do some stupid ass shit. I guess this is that "one who got away" story that I will sit back and cry to my grandkids about when I'm old, rocking my polo and boat shoes lol. Anyway, you know who you are, the kids got mad love for you...and am unfortunately taking way longer than normal to grow-up. I DONT WANNA GROW UP! It sucks.

On a brighter note, my man got an apartment next to the college, a half-house, sharing the other half with some senior girls and him and his roommate in the other half. Any who, the shit is going to be dope because yeah...his backyard is literally campus and we are going to be cooking out hella times.

Aside from the rocky love boat... I just want people to know that I am actually doing good. Way better than I have in a long ass time. It's kind of a bittersweet feelings because I can't be around the people that I would like too... but hopefully someday.

holla back and god bless...

be easy... & shoutout to my man Melky for hitting for the cycle in the win over the Black Sox. Yankees are steam rolling... (phillies too lol)...

Shoutout to the Ace

Postings coming to a screen near you, nukka.

What do you want?

What do you want from a brother like me? I really ain't got much to give. Got some bills past due, i drive a hoop-d, ain't nothin in my fridge, but I got so much love to give? Told me, you need things, that I want to give you baby, I aint got much dough, so I'm just trying to love you. I know think I be ballin baby, but I got plenty issues..so if you wait, patiently, we can make love while you wait and see. I know you want a dude that can duck and splurge on you, i wish that I could, but that aint something I can do. I aint the type of guy that can go out and buy you everything you need, but imma love you right girl, its gonna take some time, but put your trust in me.

LoveStoned?

What's good everybody? Been quite an emotional roller coaster throughout these past few days. A lot of it has been self-conflict, but nevertheless, it is conflict. Throughout the past, damn, 4 years, I have basically been in a relationship, having met a girl when I was at freshman at the university. Having spoken to some friends the other night, as we went off on a drunken tangent, we discussed love and if there was really someone out there for everyone. Now, I didn't really add much to the conversation except the occasional laugh and calling out bullshit lol. Anyway, as I have pondered the idea, I have stumbled with the idea of true love because its like should true love be hard or just the way? Because from my experiences, I have experienced love, but have fucked it up, anyway, I have experienced love but have not found it easy. Now you may have found it easier to just walk away, but I have not found it one bit easy as I reach to obtain full atonement. I had a good girl once, who I definitely loved with all my heart...but I guess personally, I took so much for granted that it just wasnt able to work. Not just because I fucked up, but more because I was unable to really dig inside of myself and find the underlying meaning of what it meant to be me. Anyway, after 4 years of pretty much being with someone, I find it totally hard to even begin to approach life without that person. It sucks because I still have feelings for this person but is it too late to try? I mean, how does someone really recieve a pardon for things they have done wrong in their life. With love, I just feel that it is a constant struggle..a beautiful struggle. I don't really know.. it just sucks not having that same person to turn too to just talk or hold. It's fucking tough man... and if you have not experienced this, cool, and Im sorry for opening up like this, but this is my fucking blog lol. I have become very involved with understanding people and working to maintain relationships with people, all while remaining objective to whom the person is. A lot of people feel that they know me because of some things that I have done, or some things that they may have heard... but all in all...not very many people actually know the real me, who I am and what I see and feel and hear. I know that I am a good friend... not a great friend...but I'll be the first one to go to war for a friend of mine. I know I easily forgive people.I am a protector. I am some times a comedian because I am a funny motherfucker. I can be a liar. I can be a theft. I can be romantic. I can be serious. I get mad. I hurt. I cry. I love. As I look to further understand myself and people, I look to constantly better myself as a human. People label me a bad guy! Haha... I am actually far from that. Insecure at times...because I am unsure of myself at times... but can definitely be the life of any party and my friends know that for sure. I got love for my peoples and they know who they are and hopefully everything will be everything real soon.

I'mma post up some for shit on here real quick.

Show out too my man A. from New HampSHIRE--where everyone is your brother lmfao. Hope you had fun in NY my dude--see you again soon.

Be easy everyone. Check out the postings... comment...do whatever... it is what it is.

Be easy...

JUST STONED.