Whats good?

On some real shit, I gotta step my game up. Cause once the mack starts slippin it's hard to get it back. I mean, how long is too long when it comes to getting over a lost love? It seems like mad niggas got so much shit to say but when it comes down to it, they couldnt live in my shoes, not for one minute. Don't let the fresh polos and shit fool you.. I've had it both rough and really rough, NO HOMO, and that ain't too say that I aint have it easy cause I had my share of advantages, not saying I took advantage of them all, but I def. had a silver spoon in my mouth. I guess you can say I had the best of both worlds.. or the best of one world and the worst of the other. Things are starting to come together like butt cheeks tho, so all in all, I guess all I can do is sit back and wait. Gotta get my mackin in perspective. YA dig?

STEP THE GAME UP

FIRSTLY, SHOUTOUT TO THE PHILLIES AND THE YANKEES! I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT IT SEEMS LIKE A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO JUMP ON THE PHILLIES' DICK, e.g., mets fans, red sox fans, and especially dodgers fans. I mean.. damn, where is the loyalty to your team. We don't want you on either side of the fence when it comes to being a Philadelphia Phillies fan. Thank you but no thank you.

GUCCCIIIII

FIRST DESIGN CRUSH GROOVE GRAPHIC TEE!!!

THIS IS THE FIRST RELEASE FROM CRUSH GROOVE!!! The shirt is really, really, really, really dope.

Available in black and white. Contact me for details.

THROUGHOUT THIS WEEK I WILL BE ADDING PHOTOS AND UPDATING THE LINE FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS! WE HAVE A LOT COMING OUT.... WE ARE NOT EVEN REALLY SPECIALIZING IN GRAPHIC TEES... MAINLY POLOS... SO IF YOU SEE HOW DOPE THIS TEE IS, PLEASE STAY TUNED FOR THE REST!!! WE WANTED TO GET A SAMPLE OUT THERE... SO HERE YOUR FIRST TASTE OF CRUSH GROOVE!!!

HOLLA!

READY: TREY SONGZ!

Yo everyone-- please get ya copy of Trey Songz's Ready. The album is dope. So please cop. If I was to put all of Trey Songz' albums on a playlist and go through each album in full.. I probably would get a full grasp on how well he has transformed as an artist. Ready is Trey at his best, you can tell how he has developed vocally and how his music is now more centered, focused and his message is clear.

In the past Trey was a little questionable as to what genre was he going to be in. Either R&B crooner or rap artist. He seemed not to know what he wanted to do for a career. Well 'Ready' leaves no doubt where he is headed. He is going for the Usher and earlier R. Kelly fans.

Hopefully people do not sleep on this album, it truly is a good R&B album that has not been made in probably a decade by any other artist.

Wetter

Can ya'll do me a favor and please go google "Sammie wetter remix." Shit is crack. Its some baby making shit, but it is some fire nonetheless.

It's fucking september 2nd already?

So where the fuck has time gone lately? Seriously, it's already September and I can't even believe it. It must be the fact that I have been going to Bonaventure for the past 4 years of my life and for the first time, I am not there, so that makes things kind of weird. Anyway, I have really been trying to keep my mind of it so that I can stay focused.

Today was a pretty dope day. Went up to watkins glen and chilled at the lake. It was mad nice out, so that made it perfect. Had a great ass meal. It really made my day. I am watching the yankees game and woooweee is my man Hinske and Damon on some real ishh of late. Hinske just starting to eat... but Damon especially has been pretty impressive to watch this season.

I will soon be posting more video blogs... I am still getting used to my new Imac. But it is dope. Anyway, check back soon for some updates n ish.

Holla.

Show Me Love

It's 3:56 a.m. and 17 people are currently on facebook messenger with a green light. Now that is what the fuck I am talking about! lol. I am bumpin Trey Songz, drinking a Budweiser, and chillen.

I was thinking tho, I am not the type to post half-nude pictures of myself, but I have been working out.. and the kid is getting type ripped. It's been one long ass summer, for those of you who don't even know the half of it, trust me, it was long. Anyway, the hair is getting long, I've been getting my hulk on and chillen.

Please google Phenomenon Beaded Sunglasses. These bad boys are fucking fly as hell.
Anyway, I am out. Holla at the kid.

"You know I know we know you know me very well. You say I be gamin, but it ain't that hard to tell. "

Let Me Bless You

Yo, yo, yo-- whats really good? Yesterday was simply amazing.. hit up the lil wayne, young jeezy concert at darien lake then got fucked up downtown. What a disaster. Drake wasn't there. Sucked. But my man soulja boy tell em was there. So that was ill. I bought a mac book while I was in Buffalo... shit is so fucking dope, I cannot even begin to explain.

Anyone who wants to get busted in NBA Live or Madden please see me online for the PS3 because I will happily bust your ass. The username is crushgroove.

Oh, yesterday, on the way to buffalo we were playing blackjack in the car, I was the dealer, I whooped that ass. Made 84 dollars on the trip. So thats what it is.

Anyway, got mad shit to do today like play tiger woods.

BE easy... light on up for the kid.

Update

So last night I had a not so productive convo and basically found out I was a huge mistake.. real cool. real cool. On that note, I'll dipset.

This Is Me Freestyling (fucking around) lol

DUMB FUCKING FUNNY!

Young Money Tour is landing at Darien Lake

Thursday the 28th of August... I will be at the Drake, Weezy, Yeezy, and Soulja Boy Concert. You can google tickets to get yours. I got mine for $55 a piece. So Idk. Anyway, go cop and keep it gully...this should be a great fucking show!

Mark Lagreange: Polaroids.

This is dope as shit everyone. You gotta look past the nudity because it isn't even about that, so please don't judge. It's about the expression being captured.

Hello It's Me: Todd Rundgren

I Just Want You

Pinch me if I am dreaming.

As a matter of fact, I take that back.

Let me lay there, please.

Inside of your love.

Listening to your heartbeat—

Girl there ain’t no feeling better than feeling on your body.

Girl don’t you move a muscle; I just want to touch ya.

If you ever took your love away—

I could truly say I’d die right here today.

Don’t give me the world.

I just want my girl.

If I could have anything.

I put it on everything.

That it would be you.

I just want you.

I'm Just Saying, Cuz.

Unfortunately, most of the people that I speak with don’t quite understand the power of the words that they choose. I say this because everything that’s said is an affirmation…not some of the things…BUT EVERYTHING!

I’ve never met a successful person who wasn’t very in tune with the power of words. This is because they all know that it’s the truest indicator of how someone thinks…and no one can ever do more than they can think. Understand this people, the words that you choose to express your thoughts are the same words that will create the choices that you’ll have in your life. Simply put, your language is and always will be the limitation of your world.

THINK ABOUT IT!!!

Broken.

Where do I go from here? I'm so lost. Do you know how hard it is fighting my way through this.
It shouldn't even be like this--I shouldn't have to feel like this.

Some News Updates

Alright so I watched fuckin "The Orphan" last night and must say that that shit was off the chain. Please go out and watch it cause it's definitely worth the $8.00 to go see lol... ($2.00 more and you already know :).

The Philadelphia eagles is playing the Colts tonight for the Pre-Season game. Thats what it is.

The Yankees have mapped out Joba's starts and it is said that he will have six more starts.

The Yankees play Boston @ Boston over the weekend.. with my man CC pitching on Sunday.

Entourage is on Sunday..and I am anticipating this next episode cause the shit is really starting to get butter. I am tired of the half-hour bullshit, but its keeps the anticipation flowing, which is a plus.

It's rumored, my girl, Sarah Palin, is moving to Rhode Island? Wowww.. Shoutout to Bristol Palin lol.

Tom Ridge has been quoted as saying that he was pressured to raise terror alert in order to help Bush win re-election in 2004. That's fucking sad.. but anyway, Republicans are the shit. Why? Cause Obama is on that bullshit! "No one should be obligated to go into a public plan." - Obama. And no one should be obligated to go into a private plan;. As in the bill the House worked so hard to put together before recess. Real reform means any American can pay and opt in. Under the AAHC just packaged by leading Dems many Americans get royally fucking screwed.

Plaxico... 2 years in prison? God damn.

Enough for now. Be easy ya'll.

This Is Real Fly: From Burberry

Don’t let anyone tell you Burberry isn’t ‘down wiv tha kidz’. They’ve taken the popular packable cagoule and upgraded it by a considerable level – now allowing you to pack-a-trench. The trench itself is what you’d expect from Burberry – classic tailoring and all that jazz – it’s the packability that makes it so damn flyyy. At $550 it’s relatively cheap for Burberry – key word being relatively.

I HATE MONDAYS!

What it is? lol Sike. Yesterday was crazy. In a good way. I saw my family and that was refreshing--mind, body, and spirit--hallelujyerrrrr (madea shoutout lmfao). Anyway, I saw my cousins, which is always a pleasure, and some family I haven't seen in a while. I found out that my cousin Pam reads my blog SHOUTOUT COUSIN PAM! Gotta love it.

We played softball and cooked out. Uncles: Punkin, Wayne, and Cousin John on the grill. Delish as usuale. Speaking of which my cousin John is having an end of the summer party on the 12th of September! So thats what it is.

I have been listening to mad music lately and I want to share some songs to youtube or whatever.
Mint Condition: What happened?; Kanye West: RoboCop; Jagged Edge: Get This; D'Angelo: Send it on; and the Roots: Don't feel right.

KiD CuDi Man On The Moon: The End of Day | Album Art

KiD CuDi’s official Man On the Moon: The End of Day cover art has been revealed. Initially pushed back due to issues including the album art, the debut album is now locked down for a September 15th, 2009 release. Man On the Moon: The End of Day will come in two versions – a standard CD release and a Deluxe Edition DVD – each adorned with differing artwork.
This is going to be the dopest sound of the summer so holla.

random thought

I found this excerpt from Three Men in a Boat by Jerome K. Jerome quite fascinating…

“How good one feels when one is full - how satisfied with ourselves and with the world! People who have tried it, tell me that a clear conscience makes you very happy and contented; but a full stomach does the business quite as well, and is cheaper, and more easily obtained. One feels so forgiving and generous after a substantial and well-digested meal - so noble-minded, so kindly-hearted.”

Uhmm….I’ve decided to do all my future business deals over meals…LOL!!!

Break of Dawn: Michael Jackson. DOPEEEE

MAY I TALK MY SHIT AGAIN!?!?!

MICHAEL FUCKING VICK HAS SIGNED WITH THE PHILADELPHIA EAGLES, SHALL I SAY, MY FUCKING EAGLES!!! (CAN WE GET A SOUL CLAP???) HOLLA! AMEN!

PS: EVERYONE IS NOW GOING TO CHOOSE THE EAGLES IN MADDEN JUST SO THEY CAN RUN WITH MICHAEL VICK! WELL FUCK YOU, THAT IS MY TEAM!!!! :) DONT HATE-- CONGRATULATE!

Dreamkillers

What up....lmfao... I am zoooted. Anyway, I just wanted ya'll to go out and download Kanye West, "Dreamkillers." It's Dope.

Tioga Downs

Yo--

Last night went to the casino at Tioga Downs with some friends of mine. It was quite eventful. We were pissy drunk and talking mad shit to each other. I lost about 50+ bucks on the slots and drank a lot. Here is a funny video from the evening...

This Right Here Nigga...

This is the ZaZa Chair. The Shit is dope. Google them and buy one asap!

Glow In The Dark And I Don't Mean The Tour

Available in Fall 2009 Diesel launches a capsule collection of ” glow in the dark” accessories and denim to ensure that will never go unnoticed on the dance floor (kinda dope). I wonder what the markup on these will be?

Real Quick

Why is it niggas hate on you when you lie and then hate on you when you tell the truth. YOU CANT FUCKIN HANDLE THE TRUTH. What I really, really, really, really, have to say is quite raw so I freestyle lol. I say the truth, then I'm an asshole. I lie, then I'm a liar. Crazy shit. What's a nigga to do?

G.O.O.D Morning

lol.
Whats good though?
Woke up hella early this morning and watched Mr. & Mrs. Smith after a long night out. Hit up Horrigans and Legends and then repeated the cycle a few more times lol. It was a pretty chilly night tho, chilled with some friends, saw hella old-new-faces, if that makes sense lol, but it was mad cool. Slimmies were out and you know they smelled the piff on the kid. Everywhere I turned..a girl would tell me how I smelled like pot. (People sniff me for 2 reasons: either I smell fresh cause of some expensive cologne, I say expensive cause the shit aint cheap--polo holla, or I smell like that stanky stank which still smells good). THEY LOVE IT! I stay blunted tho.. I swear dutchmasters should just hook the brotha up with free boxes cause it gets costly. $1.25 a dutch, if you hit up Sammy's...and $1.75-$2.00 anywhere place else. Are you fucking kidding me? Is there any fucking love in this world lol? A fat girls gotta eat & a nigga has to get high.

I have been packing for Philly (Cudi) & the Yankees game, which is Saturday. My man Lonnie doesnt know I am coming to Philly, and since the nigga cant read, I can post it up on here lol. Sike, he can read but nigga don't get on the computer except to put pictures of himself up on his myspace. My nigga..Lonnie Knight...you in the buildin but the buildings fallin haha. You ain't know nigga--i'll holla tho.

Anyway, after the bar last night some friends came through and we blew that piffy up and made mad food last night at the crib. Pizza, chicken tenders, a bagel...you know a nigga fiends bagels when he pissy drunk and high on that jarell theodore hughes III. I passed out...well made drunken phone calls and left drunken voicemails...haha ughhh and woke up and bullshitted. Made steak and eggs..mmm. Shit was dumb good. I've been bumpin that Mike Jackson ish since I bought his cd yesterday.. but I gotta get back on my Cudi shit cause that nigga just don't know... I am gonna be spazzin at the joint all while smokin that JTH3.

Just realized that my arms are sore from Kayaking yesterday....and I didnt even paddle all crazy like that. Oh well...

Anyway, I'll holla. Its almost nine... roll something up.

When You Meet Me, When You See Me, You Know How To Holla!

Yoooo-- went fucking kayaking early this morning for the first time with my man, Matt. Shoutout. Shit was mad refreshing and relaxing. I fucking almost tipped the kayak mad times--got hella wet. I was tight. We hit up wegmans for some lunch, had a killer sub. I underestimated the power of a wegmans meal lol. Called a girl today, she stunted on me as usuale lol. Fuck it. Life goes on. Yankees and CC on Saturday at 4:15. Suite seats compliments of Aunt Penny and the Adidas Staff. So if you watch the game and they show the glimpse of the suite with the adidas logo-- THATS THE KID AND HIS FAMILY + Matt-- BALLLLLLLIN' Haha.

Do you understand what you are to me? The air I fuckin breathe.

Cudi Concert w/ Mr. Roth at the Electric Factory in Philly...shit is going to be dope. I caught a show of Cudi's in Toronto--the dude is fly. I will post pics of both events.

The day has been really wonderful in terms of weather--not muggy at all. I gotta buy me a kayak. You know I have been burnin.. not concernin... lol mad erractic in this posting, but its my blog.

Burn Cam?

True Story

can't sleep. please don't blow my high. I've been textin you for weeks but aint git a reply. I used to be fly but my mack is slippin..girl steady trippin. 4 years down the drain...should we arrange bells? weddings? hell no. get high and shine and b-line for the love line where there you'll find an empty portrait where her face once was. there will always be mistakes and they must be forgiven. love is that ability.

You text me complain cause I ain't ever get you flowers, like flowers don't die after a few hours. But I bought that coach purse, bought them necklaces, copped u bracelets, had you decked out in both pearls n laces--nikes. Yeah you bought shit, but I ain't floss it, cause it was never about that. Ya paid 450 and I never returned it. You mad at me now, why, Cause I lied, huh? Cause I was droppin airplane rides like I fell from the sky? Just too see you? Thats mad bread. Do the math. Same day flights. Not cheap. Haha.

But if we was in a movie, girl you'd be the one I'd be chasin, got my heart racin cause I aint ever seen a cutie with a package wrapped up so tight. But could you do with a brotha like me? I aint really got much to give. I got some bills pass due, and drive a hoop-d--aint nothing in my fridge, but got so much love to give. I know you think that I be ballin, but I got many issues, but if you wait patiently we can make love why you wait n see.

But, girl, I'mma be alright my nigga.

Haha I call you, you answer, hang right up, text me talkin about you meant to hit ignore? What kind of shit is that? Then you text me after weeks of playing mia then say Im ignoring you because I was getting high? You act like I'm a fiend..but I was doing the same thing while getting A's and B's--Bonas stand up.

(Cont.)

Yo whats good... I am sittin here, blunted as fuck haha. Bumping that Jay-Z, American Gangster Album. Shit is flyyyyyyy. Talkin to my man Johnnie Huffington Mc Yup Yup on the Facebook messenger as we speak and multi-taskin cause the blackberry is ringin out the window with bs texts lmfao. Sike naw. Anyway, I was supposed to fry chicken wings because my step-brother and his girlfriend came over to bullshit, basically. I never got to the frying though lol. Started talking about this and that, got blunted. I'll attach the blaze up cam photo in a sec, lol. I really should put up photos of me blazin in all types of random ass places. That shit would be bananas haha...

96 out of the 650ish friends I have on facebook are on messenger right now. Pretty impressive, considering so many people can be doing nothing at the same moment in time (oh 98 now lol) its funny. I gotta be off be back sooon.

UP, UP, On The Moon

I never gave a fuck
I never a fuck about what niggas thought about me
I mean did but fuck it.


They can't comprenhend
They even come close to understanding me
I guess if I was boring they would love me more
Guess if I was simple in the mind
Everything would be fine
Maybe if I was jerk to girls
Instead of being nice and speakin kind words
But then maybe it would be ok to say then
I wasn't a good guy to begin with

But now my mind is all crazy, crazy, crazy...
They gat me thinkin ine human,
Like I came in from above, above, above...
Feelin like a airplane in the sky
But then they say I'm crazy, crazy, crazy...
They gat me thinkin ine human,
Like I came in from above, above, above...
Feelin like a bird sittin high

T.G.I.F

Thank God I'm Fresh.

I'm super-duper and stay on my cream soda. Open up your heart and you will understand me. Fall into the music and let yourself go....

Picture compliments of my blackberry: @ Seneca lake.

My lifes way beyond your mama knows best

So whats good people...

first of all I would like to thank the people who sent me facebook messages in regards to my posting. Yes, I am okay everyone out there. You can reply on the page, I believe, you don't have to be a blogger member but anyway I appreciate the love any way I can get it. One comment in particular that really helped me put things into perspective was from a friend from the U.K. I won't post names... "Reading your blog-- Calvin, I think you should call "her" if you are still in love with her, 4 years is a long time for people your age... you can try to make things up, if you have understood why you blew it... I dont know why you two broke up and I am not really in favour of long relationships when people are young because oviously people change and then you end up together with someone who is not what he/she was in the beginning...but hey, maybe its not the case, dont let her go so easily if you love her and you are ready to respect that [...] " OK-- so that was some good advice... but when I do talk to this person things go awry very fast because I cant ever seem to manage to get the dark cloud hanging over my head to leave me. I have been through a lot over the weeks in order to rid myself but it seems that the more I try the harder things get. I understand that things will get worse before they get better...but damn.. I aint really got that kinda time ya heard? Love is fucked up and will make you do some stupid ass shit. I guess this is that "one who got away" story that I will sit back and cry to my grandkids about when I'm old, rocking my polo and boat shoes lol. Anyway, you know who you are, the kids got mad love for you...and am unfortunately taking way longer than normal to grow-up. I DONT WANNA GROW UP! It sucks.

On a brighter note, my man got an apartment next to the college, a half-house, sharing the other half with some senior girls and him and his roommate in the other half. Any who, the shit is going to be dope because yeah...his backyard is literally campus and we are going to be cooking out hella times.

Aside from the rocky love boat... I just want people to know that I am actually doing good. Way better than I have in a long ass time. It's kind of a bittersweet feelings because I can't be around the people that I would like too... but hopefully someday.

holla back and god bless...

be easy... & shoutout to my man Melky for hitting for the cycle in the win over the Black Sox. Yankees are steam rolling... (phillies too lol)...

Shoutout to the Ace

Postings coming to a screen near you, nukka.

What do you want?

What do you want from a brother like me? I really ain't got much to give. Got some bills past due, i drive a hoop-d, ain't nothin in my fridge, but I got so much love to give? Told me, you need things, that I want to give you baby, I aint got much dough, so I'm just trying to love you. I know think I be ballin baby, but I got plenty issues..so if you wait, patiently, we can make love while you wait and see. I know you want a dude that can duck and splurge on you, i wish that I could, but that aint something I can do. I aint the type of guy that can go out and buy you everything you need, but imma love you right girl, its gonna take some time, but put your trust in me.

LoveStoned?

What's good everybody? Been quite an emotional roller coaster throughout these past few days. A lot of it has been self-conflict, but nevertheless, it is conflict. Throughout the past, damn, 4 years, I have basically been in a relationship, having met a girl when I was at freshman at the university. Having spoken to some friends the other night, as we went off on a drunken tangent, we discussed love and if there was really someone out there for everyone. Now, I didn't really add much to the conversation except the occasional laugh and calling out bullshit lol. Anyway, as I have pondered the idea, I have stumbled with the idea of true love because its like should true love be hard or just the way? Because from my experiences, I have experienced love, but have fucked it up, anyway, I have experienced love but have not found it easy. Now you may have found it easier to just walk away, but I have not found it one bit easy as I reach to obtain full atonement. I had a good girl once, who I definitely loved with all my heart...but I guess personally, I took so much for granted that it just wasnt able to work. Not just because I fucked up, but more because I was unable to really dig inside of myself and find the underlying meaning of what it meant to be me. Anyway, after 4 years of pretty much being with someone, I find it totally hard to even begin to approach life without that person. It sucks because I still have feelings for this person but is it too late to try? I mean, how does someone really recieve a pardon for things they have done wrong in their life. With love, I just feel that it is a constant struggle..a beautiful struggle. I don't really know.. it just sucks not having that same person to turn too to just talk or hold. It's fucking tough man... and if you have not experienced this, cool, and Im sorry for opening up like this, but this is my fucking blog lol. I have become very involved with understanding people and working to maintain relationships with people, all while remaining objective to whom the person is. A lot of people feel that they know me because of some things that I have done, or some things that they may have heard... but all in all...not very many people actually know the real me, who I am and what I see and feel and hear. I know that I am a good friend... not a great friend...but I'll be the first one to go to war for a friend of mine. I know I easily forgive people.I am a protector. I am some times a comedian because I am a funny motherfucker. I can be a liar. I can be a theft. I can be romantic. I can be serious. I get mad. I hurt. I cry. I love. As I look to further understand myself and people, I look to constantly better myself as a human. People label me a bad guy! Haha... I am actually far from that. Insecure at times...because I am unsure of myself at times... but can definitely be the life of any party and my friends know that for sure. I got love for my peoples and they know who they are and hopefully everything will be everything real soon.

I'mma post up some for shit on here real quick.

Show out too my man A. from New HampSHIRE--where everyone is your brother lmfao. Hope you had fun in NY my dude--see you again soon.

Be easy everyone. Check out the postings... comment...do whatever... it is what it is.

Be easy...

JUST STONED.

Polish Model

Model: Zuzanna Krzatala
Hometown: Szczecin, Poland
Discovered: At 13, by an agent who spotted me at the mall. (I was cutting a chemistry exam.)
Most embarrassing moment on-set: While a corset was being tightened on me, I accidentally spat out my gum at the stylist.
Favorite item in my closet: Blue Chloe bag- it's very rock-and-roll.
Hidden talent: Reciting poetry.
If I weren't a model, I'd be: A ballet dancer.

The girl is baddd.

Nike Medicine Ball Trainer III Available

After much anticipation the Nike Medicine Ball Trainer 3 has finally been released. The inspiration is obvious and the colorway looking really nice and classic. This shit is properrr.

Nike SB Dunk: August 2009

Fresh 2 def: P-Rod 3, Dunk-Mid, Zoom Bruin, and Zoom Classic.

Public Service Announcement

What's good world? It's ya boy...killa cal. Sittin here at the computer, looking out of my window, chillen on this muggy mafuckin day. Right now I am listening to my nigga Jay-Z, the G.O.A.T album (underground mixtape). Kudos Bird, on the hook up. I ain't even gonna begin to front, but I always seem to find myself turning the volume up as I listen to music. What's the deal with that?!? HAHA. I love fuckin music...

check out that kid mafuckin cudi because the shit is dope. For example, the tracks: Cudi Spazzin', Rollin (Remix), and Cleveland is the Reason, to name a few. Firrrrrreee right there.

My uncle Amos died two days ago, shout out to the unc. Rest in peace.

I got some fresh gear to post up so check it out.


& oh, and you already know I stay burnin. Dutchmaster(s). :) HOLLA!

Smokin So Much Weed, I'm Better Off Alone.

today has been long... if it continues to be as humid out as it has been of late, I am going to die lol. I have been puffin mad herb lately, I won't even lie. Shit has had me on sort of "intellectual journey" lmfao. Truthfully I have been mad zooted. Oh, check it, Sunday, I went to the Ukraine Festival in the Heights and I saw Vasile (older Vasile-- Gudjic or whatever lol). Anyway, its a small fucking world--we downed a beer together and kept it movin. It was cool tho. I am about to go grocery shopping in a few, and truthfully, I am probably going to spend like 50 bucks alone on ice cream because I am straight fiendin right now. Is it just me or do you hate when people call you from numbers that you dont know!?! That shit annoys me. And what gets me is that they keep calling--BITCH IM NOT ANSWERING, SO DON'T BOTHER! LMFAO.

On some real shit tho, I am feeling good and taking everyday with a lighter n lighter footstep. I still got some shit I need to take care of. This love game has got me all fucked up, but I guess thats neither here no there.

Be easyyyy.

Zulu tried and pass the blunt
i told him imma have to pass
cause if i decide to smoke it
i will float to leener land
but my man is that so bad
different from reality
i try and tell my nigga Melwesky
hope my mom aint mad at me
my lifestyle is a wild life with style, and my brain on drugs
i wont stop until im numb, tellin myself the night is young

Tattooed: It's official

Yo--

I got my tattoo last night and I must say that I was type scared at first but that shit was not painful one bit. Took it like a G lol. I'm already thinking about my next one. Anyway, I got my shit done at D4L in the heights-- shit cost me a buck, but it was well worth it. The shit is dope.

Be easyyy.

New Apartment: It's official.

What a fucking day ya'll. I have moved into my new crib and can't be happier. Looks like things are finally starting to turn for the best. I have a lot of shit to do but I just wanted to let you all know the scoop. Get my tattoo tomorrow...will update soon thereafter.

Be easyyyy.

I've been Urkel for some years, it's better being Jalil.

Yo--

Today has been pretty chill for the most part. I haven't really done shit thus far today but it is all good because it is highly overdue since I have been on my hustle and flow. Side note: I am listening to that Jason Mraz--I'm yours, shit is crack. Anyway, I got too my dads quite early this morning, like 9 lol and immediately passed out. Woke up and ate some fish and grits, the shit was hella good. Now I am working on this blog...a friend called and wants me to make her some cds, so I told her punk ass to go buy some, so she is and is going to be dropping them off soon. My tattoo is coming in T-minus 2 days. By 8 o'clock on Friday, I will officially be tatted lmfao. I'm prolly gonna shed some tears but I dont care. I should be in this new crib by this weekend. Landlord and I have been playing cat and mouse and hopefully we can meet up so I can get this god damn key.

Mom-- you prolly not reading this, but just know that I am thinking about you and praying for you everyday.

I'll be around in a little bit ya'll. Stay up and be fuckin easy!

Draw The Line

The process of becoming better begins with an open mind to change…simply because it’s impossible for anything to become better while remaining the same. And although your mind is open to something new, it’s important that you never lose your sense of self in the process. It is your sole responsibility to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.

Saw this watch at the mall...shit is dope.

Saw this Nixon watch at the mall today and really wanted it, but my bread was lookin type low after spending over a 120 dollars on polos. Anyway, I still got my heart set on that glow in the dark nooka watch, but this nixon jump off is coming shortly thereafter. The money is gonna be right in a short ass minute so watch out. Also, my mans (A.) has rented out a building for a clothing store and I have been going in on it with him and we will be opening soon in elmira. I got my permit back from Albany for my label...so that will be jumpin out the window soon. Check the blog for updates because I have been working with a Cat I grew up with to get the website and shit. (The coding is a motherfucker--but dude is a wiz).

AYY YO

Whats good internet world? I am fuckin mad tired yo. The real world is no joke--on some real shit. Anyway, today was mad hectic and this hot ass sun doesn't make it any easier. Anyway, I should be into my new crib by this weekend and am really fuckin pumped. I went to this tattoo place in elmira, DFL, to get my tattoo drawn up by the artist and am going to be getting that shit on friday at 7:00. Yesssssir.... my first tattoo. Oh, I bout 2 Ralph Lauren Polos today too. Shit is dumb flyy.

Got this insurance shit taking care of. lol. You know niggas in my age group are highly unisured. Shit is wicked son. Hospital bills be mad fuckin high. It's like ten of seven and the yankees are coming on--they been busting that ass of late.

But anyway, I will keep ya'll posted. Be easy and stay up.

Welcome Back

Hey ya'll out there in the internet world. Sorry I have been absent for mad long. I have been busting my ass to get my life together and hence have not had the opportunity to blog of late. It's been like 3 long ass weeks & no I was not locked up in jail lol. I spent some time in the hospital (long story) but have been working tiredlessly to get my shit together. I have lied, stole, manipulated and have hurt many people that care about me. I know that this message will not reach out to everyone that should hear this, but this is not my last attepmpt. I sincerely apologize for everything that I have done and pray that you all can forgive me. Mentally, I am focused and back on my grind. I know that this message will not magically make everything disapper but this is my first attempt to rectify/right all my wrongs.

I am getting my first tattoo on Saturday. I will post the photo shortly thereafter.

Be easy and god bless.

NEVER CAN SAY GOODBYE..No, No, No: RIP MICHAEL JACKSON!

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight

Here One Day

Gone One Night

Like a Sunset

Dying with the Rising of the Moon

Gone too soon

Gone (and we would add ENTIRELY) too Soon

Perez is on that next shit.

Idk if ya'll seen Perez Hilton's twitter today... I am not a follower, but stumbled across it & dude had some pretty nasty remarks for the death of The Michael Jackson.

This is the link so ya'll can check the shit out: http://twitpic.com/8et2f

The shit is hella grimey. Fuck Perez's bitch ass. Punk ass motherfucker. That's why he got bitch slapped.

Check out the link and leave a comment and let me know what ya'll think.

Talib Kweli + Hi-Tek: Back Again

Talib Kweli + Hi Tek-Reflection Eternal -Back Again-Vid Premiere

PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR!

Last night was a crazy one.

So I spent most of the evening in emotional ups and downs--which is what happens when you are stuck in relationship purgatory if you will. Coming off a busy day, some people like to relax. Me, I wanna go out and blow some steam, drink some beers, and have some fun. Well at least that’s what I wanted to do last night. So after some time of doing the “Should I / Shouldn’t I” bullshit, I got a BlackBerry message from my homegirl Dez saying, “I got an extra ticket if you decide to come”. What was the ticket for? DJ SupaFlash was hosting a "Kool Aid" party. Not to be mistaken with THE KOOL-AID DRINK! That may not mean anything to anyone who doesn’t know what a kool aid party is– but for those that do – wow.

DJ SupaFlash + Kool-Aid

Yeah. I know.

The shit was bananas. The crowd wasn’t packed with a bunch of youts, everyone was in positive moods, people were dancing, singing out the words, and OBVIOUSLY the music was amazing.

So I wake up “this morning” at like noon and I feel paper against my face. I’m like, “What the fuck is this? I better be laying in a pool of money!” lol. I look up and I have a wristband on as if I just left an all inclusive resort with my high school’s graduating class or some shit. The wristband said, “kool-aid. – do your duty & shake that booty!!!”

I mean, shit. I know subliminal messaging works, but damn. Motherfuckers was doing some serious bootyshaking last night yo hahahaha!!

Shout out to everyone I seen last night that hailed me up. Shout out to Dez for the ticket, the whole LS fam, the group of friends that came through the shop and broke a corkscrew in a bottle of wine, My Man Bernie, Var from Maple for always hooking it up, Brock – I don’t remember whether I actually found you or not homey!, and on and on and on.. and a special, special, special shout out goes to my homegirl Sophia. Last night was amazing. A – maze – zing! It’s always good to see you!!!

OK – so quick story before I sign off:

My “homegirl”, says her sister’s gonna be there. I’m like whatevers. Then when we get there, I realize that her sister is actually a girl that I thought was just her friend. Not that that matters, but anyways.. Her sister turns to me and goes, “So I was looking through some of my old pictures and I realized that when I first came to Philadelphia, you sold me some weed”. LOL. I was like, “Are you from Westchester?!” and she’s like, “Yeah, I was friends with Reggie and he said that he could get me some weed and he showed up at my house with YOU”.WTF WAS SHE DOING IN NY!?! ANYWAY...SMALL WORLD! LMAO!! I was fucking dying yo. What are the chances?? So apparently she took a picture, and in the picture she said that I’m wearing a batting glove!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!! On some mid-90’s Hip-Hop shit! Holy fuck, I was laughing my ass off, foreal. She said she’ll send me the pic, and when she does I may or may not post it up for you guys to see! lol.

Aight, I’m out now foreal.

Have a good week everybody!

Be Easyyyy.

Dumb Cute!

Dedicated to B-A-B-Y-GIRL!

I wanna thank my connect...the most important person with all due respect!!!

That's what I'm chiefin. It's 30 a gram! Just copped me an O.Z.

Shoutout to my connect.

My Nigga Cudi Pissy Drunk!

Nigga was trashed. He said, "Yo..Who Am I With Right Now?" HAHA!

Hope Chris Breezy Don't Drop The Sizoap!

That nigga named Chris Brown will be joining the Virginia State Chain Gang as he is sentenced to 180 days hard labor & 5 years felony probation. God damnnn, homie!! Yo real talk-- lesson learned, never put your fucking hands on a female, yo. That shit is not cool. Now this nigga will be on the highways of virginia serenading other inmates and shit... haha I can see it now. I gotta get to Virginia and cop me a picture.

PS: Rihanna was dead ass ready to testify against a nigga. That was type grimey tho. I ain't gonna front..we all know love makes you do some crazy ass shit. It is what it is.

Is This True?

“People who grow rich almost always improve their sex life because more people want to have sex with them. That’s just the way human beings work. Money is power. Power is an aphrodisiac. Money did not make me happy. But it definitely improved my sex life.”

-Felix Dennis

Eva Mendes Calvin Klein Ad

Smokin!

TOUCHE

I just woke up from a nap and saw that Will I Am bitch slapped Perez last night. Perez's punk ass was on twitter last night talking about, "Still waiting for the police. The bleeding has stopped. I need to document this. Please, can the police come to the SoHo Met Hotel." What fucking cops you know check twitter? Like, wtf? This motherfucker is really mentally fucked up. I applaud Will I Am and his entourage for giving this dude a reality check cause he is lameeee.

INNOVATIVE

Alright so I have been working on my clothing label for quite some time now and I think I have finally made a major breakthrough. I don't want to get into too much details for obvious reason but it has been a lot of work trying to keep things on the down low. You know how people are when they see that you are trying to do something constructive--they tend to blur your vision. Well I am not letting anyone blur my vision, I stay with Visine in my pocket, ya dig? Anyway, right now I have a clear vision of what I am trying to do. Now I need to find a seamstress because buying Hanes tees and polos and all that shit and putting my logo on it is not my style. That's whack as hell if you ask me. So I'm gonna keep it a hundred! DONT SELL ME SOME SHIT WITH YOUR LOGO ON IT AND THE INNER TAG SAYS HANES OR SOMETHING ELSE FOR THAT MATTER! THAT IS NOT DOPE!! Now I need to step my purchasing power up ASAP because doing it the way I want too is going to cost mad bread. But I gotta do what I gotta do. I am zooted as hell so please excuse the grammar and language-- I am not trying to be all academic like in this post.

I will be starting out with some Polos and Tees and hope to expand from there. The name of the label is set but I will not release that yet. A few of my closest friends know the name but other than that I am on the hush.

Bry just got here so I gotta roll up.

Real quick updates:
Had an interview today: went dumb good.
Got a second interview.
Major breakthrough in the label process.
High as hell.
Signed up for twitter today.
Planning a Toronto trip with the boys.

I got some new posts ready to be put up so I will do that soon.

Be easyy.

Barbie Photo Shoot By Sean Brown

DOPE!

Nike Big Nike High “The Flinstones”

All I can say is, " Yabba Dabba Doooo!"

Black Joe Lewis & The Honeybears

Black Joe Lewis & The Honeybears - I'm Broke
by UniversalMusicGroup

I ain't even gonna front, when I first heard this, I was instantly hooked. The instrumentals is dope. The video is dope. Check the shit out.

Kid-Cudi

Alright so, since I'm on this music tip-- I am gonna go ahead and say that my man Kid Cudi is really crush groovin the hip-hop game right now. He has like an emo, hip-hop vibe, in a very creative yet unique manner. When I first listened too Day N' Night, I wasn't really feeling it at first, however, it really grew on me. His lyrics and beats hit me on all different levels. As I sit back chill, burn an el, and do my thing--Kid Cudi is the soundtrack of my life at this current stage.

Be Easyy..

"Like I'm 16: First Time High."

The Names Wale (Wa-LEY) Don't Say Wal-E... WALEEEE!

Now I can't say enough about this dude right here. He is absolutely here to change the music game. He reminds me of old school hip hop, like with a meaning to it. I like this dude--real talk, Wale I been a fan man.EVERYBODY check him out.

Believe Nothing

Why do I believe what I believe? Is it more due to what I’ve been taught or what I’ve learned in my life? This is a must know for anyone who really wants to define their own life…but how? I’ve come up with one solution so far…to believe in nothing! And when I say nothing, that includes oneself. I think this process will naturally produce more objective inquiries about everything, thus allowing one to get to the core reason of the belief.

With that said, do you think your life would change for the better or the worse with such a drastic paradigm shift?

Fremont Holumns Suspender Pants

This is fly, Ladies. Google the Fremont clothing line. It's sexy.

Kids House by Studio Mama

I sure wish I had this when I was growing up. This is dope. Do you see the chalk board on the side?

A Beautiful Mind

I believe that what is right is totally relative to perspective. The human mind can, will and does justify anything that it wants! There is no absolute right or wrong, a real scary thought for those who have a need to believe in absolutes.

The beautiful part of this way of thinking is that you have complete control of what’s right for you. Anytime that someone attempts to thrust their idea upon me, I always put it through the “how’s does this benefit me” filter. And why shouldn’t I? I know that at any given time, no man is ever beyond doing something that another man thinks is a total waste of time.

The dangerous component of this way of thinking is man himself. Sigmund Freud said, “Men are more moral than they think and far more immoral than they can imagine.” The issue I take with this is why does it seem that the “moral” tend to always let the “immoral” control them? Even in this day of having what seems to be infinite access to information, I wonder if it could be something that’s innate which causes this condition to continue?

The reason why I call our innate sensibilities into question is that the intellectuals who are in control will always play on emotions and never to intellect. You know the tactic, tell them what they want to hear but never what they need to hear. It’s so fucking obvious to me! And no matter how much information is revealed, the same patterns continue. Maybe Aristotle was dead on when he said, “It is thus clear that, just as some are by nature free, and others are by nature slaves, and for these latter the condition of slavery is both beneficial and just.”

But hey like I said earlier, “The human mind can, will and does justify anything that it wants!”

Oh you best believe that truth can be identified and articulated amongst the myriad emotions and motivations of a man’s heart - that is a bold and foolhardy statement.

It is said that a respect for the things that you do not understand is the true beginning of wisdom. Therefore - to position wisdom in the eye of the individual opens the door to a realm of floored multiplicity. There are as many opinions as there are voices - but truth has always been and will always be truth. That truth is truth to you is not truth.As for me? The older I get, the more I realize how little I actually do know.

I feel like deep down inside I never can seem to get things remotely correct. I know I am highly intelligent, however, can that work against me? I think that it has in some instances and I am working relatively hard to overcome that. I say relatively because I can't sit here and lie and say I bust my ass at it, but everyday I try to be a little bit better. Do I always succeed? No.

I got a girl who loves me to death, who wants me to do the right thing--always. I will be the first to say that I obviously love this person back, however, it is highly difficult to change overnight. Misunderstood? I think I am--but a lot of that I blame on myself. But I will be alright.

Be easy.

That Nigga Drake!

Drake will be announcing his new label of choice in the next week so stay tuned. I am not gonna front, I am hoping that it is G.O.O.D. He needs to get down with Kanye.

Phillies Fan's Are Out Of Pocket--- I Love It!

This was last nights Phillies game versus the Blue Jays. It gets real gully at 0:32. That's why Philly Pistolvania is off the chain... even the females gettin it in.

How Honest Are You With Yourself?

I look at myself in the mirror every morning.

But, sometimes, I wish I could see myself move and interact with other people just to see what people see. That way, I may be able to better understand the next person's point of view. I don't think any of us wanna be perceived as delusional, but I think we all go through our moments. I like to think I'm able to recognize my faults rather than constantly deny and point fingers, but every now and then, it's good to have friends who pulls no punches and show you the ugly truth. Let's not get it twisted. I don't listen to just anybody. I know who has my best interests at heart, who's malicious, and who's absolutely incapable of reading properly, so I value some opinions and take others with a grain of salt.

As of late, I've been trying to take more responsibility for anything negative I'm involved in. For instance, if someone starts an argument, it may still be my fault. Knowing the person, I should know if what I say has the potential to set them off, so I can either choose to speak or remain quiet accordingly.

I tell people all the time, my biggest flaw is that I embrace my flaws too much. Like, I'm absolutely comfortable the way I am and don't plan on changing for the most part. Chances are if you point out something negative about me, I'll agree with you, but I still go into denial about certain things like everybody else. It's not too bad when you know you're lying to yourself, but when you're oblivious to it, it's just not a good look. I honestly don't think there's a single person out there who is 100 percent honest with themselves. Some are just more than others.
Public perception's just a bitch. Just remember one thing, the next time you aren't being honest with yourself, somebody's most likely seeing right through you.

Fresh Prince: Aunt Vivian Is Outta Pocket With This One.

Remember Aunt Viv from” Fresh Prince of Bel-Air”? The original Aunt Viv? Well Janet Hubert has a new tell-all/memoirs out called Perfection Is Not A Sitcom Mom where she talks about the un-princely conduct of former co-star Will Smith Here’s an excerpt:

“Smith had people around him who made sure no one outshone him. I was happy to see Don Cheadle become the quality actor that he is, and often wondered how he made it past one episode, as Hilary’s boyfriend, being such a fierce actor. No one could be on ‘The Tonight Show,’ that first season, except Will. And I mean no one.”

Aunt Viv's hatin ass also went on to recall an incident where another actor was cut from a guest spot on the show after being too impressive at an early rehearsal for that episode.

“I recall the lovely and incredibly talented Countess Vaughn coming to guest star. Oh my God! The day of table read, she was pee-in-your-pants funny. The writers were howling, we were howling, so I knew she was history – banished into the cornfield. Many years later, after she had her own show, I had to tell her when she asked me why. ‘Miss Janet why did I get cut from the episode,’ she asked? Simply, my darling, you were too good,” she recollected.

FUCK AUNT VIV!

Consequence ft. Kanye West & John Legend - Whatever You Want (Flyer)

Ha! You know you saw that post title and got amped. I'll have the song up soooooon. Trust.

Sea Salt?

Regardless of how much a white person cooks or how long they have lived in their current home, they all have a tube of sea salt in their pantry. In fact, it’s one of the few foodstuffs that white people will actually bring with them when they fucking move. This is because sea salt is expensive and while white people have money, they didn’t get that way by throwing away $7 packages of salt.

When white people think about regular salt, all they can think about is sodium and poor health. When they think about Sea Salt they think about France. So it’s no surprise that it has become so popular.

But Sea Salt is like Trader Joes, Banksy, or The Shins-entry level to their respective field. Therefore, it is important that you learn about other more expensive salts so that you can complain about not having them. To a white person, this shows that you know and love expensive things but feel sad that you can’t yet afford them.

From here you can fill up an entire evening by making the same complaints about art, real estate or Europe. Black People: This Is Our Destiny! LMFAO

I WANT THESE!!! I WEAR A SIZE 10.5!!

NIKE AIR TRAINER LEGACY PACK:

THIS IS FUCKING DOPE!

CONGRATS KOBEEEE!



LOOK AT THAT NIGGA LEBRON!!! HAHAHAHA

Nooka Summer Watch Collection

For The Young, Fly & Flashy.

This Is Kanye's Babygirl... Oh, She Bad.

Believe it or not... she lived 2 blocks from me when I lived in Philly. I knew who she was before the shaved head and when she was working at "Delilah's." Ya dig?

Connecting The Dots

Ok so my mom introduced me to Kahlil Gibran very early in my life. As far back as I can remember, she always had his book, The Prophet, lying around the house.

After reading his book recently, it has become a no brainer for me to post this: “Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens.” Kahlil Gibran.

As I was going through my routine of selecting a picture, my thoughts were flooded with childhood memories of my mom trying her best to get me to read his book.

Clearly it had an affect on me looking back on it now. I really had a good laugh when I realized that I wasn’t being as original as I thought when it came to my idea of how to look in pictures. I’m not sure what it means that his thoughts and image laid dormant in my sub-conscious for all these years, but I know it means something!!!

This is a great example of how much our past can have an impact on our present and why it’s so important that we always question why we do what we do. Fortunately in this case it was something positive and endearing, but it could’ve just as easily been something negative that was the foundation of my thoughts and behavior.

Ladies: I Don't Give A Fuck... This Is Dumb Sexy!

What else can I say about this Chrishabana "Smoking Lips" Necklace-- IT'S DOPE, NUKKA! A necklace like this says one thing on a female..I'm badd.